hello, everybody. Im back!

last night i went to the "galaxy of stars". That was the place where my ex bf danced at the dance floor and of course, memories came back.

Although it still did affect my mood abit, but i did made me reflect on alot of stuffs.

firstly, i should thank him for breaking my heart.

Cause he made me grow up. He made me think of things in another angle.

&not like how i used to think of things in the past.

Secondly, He made me think that all human's shouldn't place LOVE in their first position.

Because when one places love in the first position &when one loses love at the end,

they'll feel at loss.

Like how i felt in the first week of the breakup.

For now, my future, family, friends will be my first position.

They're the ones who're there for me when im going through the "down" part of my life.

Without them, i wouldn't have become so strong.

Im actually thankful to god that he made me realised alot of things at this point of time.

However, i still have no confidence in love, relationship and even in myself.

There's this weird thinking of me.

i felt disappointed in alot of things.

for example, in my heart, some people used to have very good impressions in my heart.

But..... just because of something or people change, they'd broken the image of them in my heart. this kind of feelings is weird.

&when something that you strongly believed in then... someone smashes the idea of it, that kind of weird feeling is cannot be described.

Like how i used to believe about my prince charming, my true love, my mr right, my long &lasting relationship, my happiness with my love one.

But just because of my recent breakup, i realised i no longer believed in stuffs like this anymore. & I dont know how come i'll feel this way. do you feel this way too?

however, when i saw the old couples dancing at the dance floor last night, i kept reflecting on stuff like.. in our generation, will there still be such guy? :\

& I even saw an old guy kissing his wife on her lips. How loving. :

Again the same question repeats on my head.

&that's a very good question. Haha.

Im a person with very low self esteem cause i own an ugly set of teeth, im fat and im short!

For now, i felt like im the only one who’s suffering and he’s not. It’s unfair! TOTALLY.

Each time i feel that way, my heart will sink. &i’ll turn into an emo freak.

DDDDDDDAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMNNNNNNNNNNNN IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTT!

FUCK LOVE, FUCK RELATIONSHIP, FUCK HIM WHO BROKE MY HEART.